Does anyone want to talk

[Zoe7]

It could @ArraDreaming but the sun could explode tomorrow also - neither likely hey!

Your kids, your family and you are safe buddy. You do everything for your family and are so special to them. You love for your family amplifies those fears but I truly believe those fears are coming from your experiences as a child- being moved around a lot, left on your own and being the 'grown up' looking after your siblings ...that is A LOT buddy. But here's the thing - despite all that you have been through and all those times you were not cared for, you are a stable, caring and supportive person for your family. Yes you do get angry sometimes but you also recognise you need a break to settle yourself and you do not take any of that out on your family. You really are an amazing person @ArraDreaming 

[Zoe7]

LOL @ArraDreaming If I don't take a list then I forget everything I need. I went to Kmart earlier to get two things and could not remember what the second thing was (until I got home) - didn't think I would need a list for 2 things - WRONG lol

[ArraDreaming]

I didn’t have a list I don’t know why I didn’t have one @Zoe7 that was dumb

[ArraDreaming]

Thank you @Zoe7
it’s because lots of people helped me I didn’t do that on my own

[Zoe7]

It is great that you have had a lot of people help you @ArraDreaming but never forget - You have been the one to do the work to change. If those people had not helped you then who knows where you would be now but I am so proud of the man you are, the Dad you are and the partner you are. As I said another time - light shines the brightest out of the darkness - and you are certainly that light.

[ArraDreaming]

I just love my family so much that I don’t want anything to happen to them @Zoe7 it’s my biggest fear is that they will do that to my family (or someone dying)

[ArraDreaming]

and Sane @Zoe7 they gave me a second chance when it didn’t work out the first time as well

[ArraDreaming]

And you have always had my back too

[Zoe7]

Yeah I understand those fears @ArraDreaming For me it is the fear of the house on fire with my fur babies alone when I am not here. I do not know where that fear comes from but it can be pretty overwhelming sometims. I suppose we can never foresee the future and that is why I try to just live in the moment. Worrying about what might happen was a major thing for me for so long - now I am much calmer not going to 'worst case scenarios' - just enjoy the good times hey!

I truly love chatting with you @ArraDreaming and even more so love seeing your growth, strength, courage and compassion - keep being you buddy because you are enough.

I am going to head back to Kmart but I won't be gone long. I will check in with you when I get back.

[ArraDreaming]

that’s ok, I am home now anyway so please don’t worry about me @Zoe7 thank you for talking to me tonight