Tonight I am feeling very exhausted mentally and physically. After seeing this new psych this morning which was emotional for me I had to see my GP for an iron infusion. I am very anemic and had to have this done. It took an hour.
Then I drove to my DBT therapist. Well that was even worse than this morning. I told her I didn't want to go home; i want and need a break in hospital but that won't happen because of MIL in hospital. I told her that hubby is off for the week and i am back at work tomorrow,. she said to me why dont i take this week off as i am very exhuasted and emotional and i need to look after my own mental health.
I don't know what to do; i promised the girls at work that i will be back tomorrow. if i don't turn up i will have dissapoint them.
I am just so upset, even my therapist said to me tonight that every time something happens which at the moment thre are lots of things happening it is too overwhelming for me and i can't cope.
my problem is that i hide a lot of my feelings and emotoins from my husband and kids. they have no idea.
i didn't want to come home tonight, telling my therapist that i wanted to run away and see no one. she said this is me screaming for time alone.
i really wish i was away somewhere far far away. i can't cope with all of this.
i wonder if i can call this new psych tomorrow and tell him i need a break. i didn't get a chance to talk to him about how i am feeling right now or that i need a break away from home.
my therapist who i saw tonight said she will ring this new psych and talk to him.
