Red's house

[Just]

Maybe it's a sign of where your true calling is. Have you considered pet grooming. Dog minding. Or supervisor at a doggy day care. Or ??? Maybe bird minding? The sky's the limit. Maybe the puppy was a sign.

[The-red-centaur]

@Just so true. 

I'm just overwhelmed with regret. What I did is potentially damaging to my health and my future.  

But I can't really blame myself for being tired and being tired of a failing system. 

I just hope it doesn't backfire. 

[The-red-centaur]

I stayed at my "grandparents" over the weekend. I had a good time. 

I'm regretting what happened last week. There is a massive chance I'll get a big infection though... 😞 sigh I'm so stupid sometimes 

[tyme]

I hope you will seek the medical attention you need @The-red-centaur 

Take care.

[The-red-centaur]

I'm sick now 😞 my asthma has made a return and I'm tired. 

Also I have a draft of my timetable and I'll be there Monday to Thursday. 

Seriously what have I got myself into.....

Sigh I can't breathe ATM and I feel like my I'm making a big mistake with life. Why have hopes and dreams when they are unachievable. 

Most of my therapists and supports don't work Fridays. Do I just stop them all for 6 month? Or do I just skip too much class....argh I'm stressed and confused. 

I need a rest right now. Before I spiral into more of a mess

[tyme]

Draft timetable @The-red-centaur ?

[The-red-centaur]

A copt of draft timetable of my classes for my business course at tafe. @tyme 

I start in less than 2 weeks. 

[tyme]

Oh!!!! How exciting!

@The-red-centaur 

I recognise it can be daunting too. But it sounds like business is something you are interested in.

[The-red-centaur]

@tyme for probably the first time in my life. I have a strong desire for my future. 

I am passionate about my art and want to turn it into something. Studying business is one step I'm doing to pursue my goals. 

I want to turn my life around. I don't want to spend my life wishing for the day it ends. For the little bit of hope that it can be different from the strong narrative that has followed me around previously. I'm not saying it isn't hard for me, but I'm saying I'm at that tipping point where a future can be made. 

Art is my life and my life doesn't have to end anymore. 

I still get so unstable bit I have a reason to work through it now. 

[tyme]

So proud of you @The-red-centaur .

What a story of recovery. I acknowledge there's still a way to go, but at least you have something to look ahead to.