Red's house

[Jynx]

@The-red-centaur as in like, it feels like the appt won't actually be productive and you'll just be talking about same old stuff orr....? 

If there's anything you wanna chat about or even like, hash out together before the appt (e.g. figuring out a way to maybe make the appt feel like it will be more useful) pls let me know, I'm here for ya hun. Can also offer some distraction if that could help? 

Huggles 

🫂🫂

[The-red-centaur]

I told my psychologist I'd be safe...I don't know if I was trying to convince her or myself. 

I'm safe...I said I'd be. I'm just tired. So tired. 

[rav3n]

hey @The-red-centaur i'm really glad to hear you're safe. psych appts tend to bring about a lot of emotions, totally understandable that you're feeling exhausted after that. please do look after yourself and rest. do you have a post-appointment self-care activity you can do? even something like taking a nap, or eating some chocolate tends to help me with the tiredness. 

i know staying safe can be difficult, so please don't hesitate to reach out:

• Lifeline 13 11 14 https://www.lifeline.org.au/ 
• Lifeline Text Support 0477 131 114 https://www.lifeline.org.au/crisis-text/ 
• Suicide Call Back Service 1300 659 467 
  https://www.suicidecallbackservice.org.au/ 
• Call 000 Emergency services (24/7)

i know you mentioned feeling like a burden but i assure you, you are not. you deserve to be supported, YOU matter to us. we're sitting with you 💗

[Jynx]

I'm sorry @The-red-centaur my friend I didn't see this till now and I'm about to hop off. Pls know my thoughts are with you and I am sending you some strength through the aether. Hope you can get some rest this arvo hun you deserve it 💜

[The-red-centaur]

@Jynx @rav3n I'm sorry I'm not replying straight away. Words just aren't coming to me today. 

I tried to engage with my support worker. I'm lying down now, it's just all too hard.  

[rav3n]

no stress at all @The-red-centaur i get what you mean, i find it hard to muster up the energy to speak/type when i'm feeling low too. 

lying down sounds good though. sometimes i'd lay in my bed just staring at my ceiling for a few hours, listening to music. there's no pressure to 'accomplish' or 'get things done' today. it's okay if lying down is all you do. maybe when you feel up for it, drawing out how you feel maybe a nice alternative to talking xx

[Ainjoule]

Hey @The-red-centaur 

How are you going today? Did you manage to get any sleep?

[The-red-centaur]

All I've done all week is sleep. I'm still so tired. I tried to go down to the river and get out. I just wanted to go back to bed. 

I'm the kind of tired sleep doesn't fix. Idk what the point is anymore.  

[tyme]

Hey @The-red-centaur , great to see you.

I'm glad to hear you were able to get out a little and go to the river.

I'm not sure about you, but it was 32 degrees here today so i would've loved to get down to the river.

What else have you been doing lately? Painting?

[The-red-centaur]

It was 20 in Perth today @tyme

The river was nice. I like living where I do. The beach is ages away, but I'm close to the lovely Swan Valley, so I get the river and pretty vineyards. It always seems peaceful. 

I feel detached from it though. I had no energy to appreciate the view or the beauty before me. I have no energy for life. I can't paint, I barely make it out of bed.