@Gremlin24 my friend it sure is good that you are here. Remember that there are always dark days and it is always darkest before the dawn. The dawn brings new light and a fresh approach to the day ahead and sometimes we tend to get caught up in the negatives and fail to see the good and the positives.
I know recently I was stressing over the potentials and the bad outcomes, in doing so I missed seeing the good that came from it, which is my father got to see that people care and are wanting him to be ok. He is still not in a good place himself, but he seems to be slowly getting better as well.
To say the last couple days has been challenging is a bit of an understatement, I have been so tempted to contact a friend (who I said I wouldn't until I got to a set date) because things got tough, and I was struggling. The thing is I know that if I contacted them, it would undo a lot of the good that they have helped me achieve recently.
I also saw an ex-girlfriend earlier in the day, funny enough I didn't even interact with her even though I wanted to because of past trauma which was also a little triggering in the moment. I did however take a moment to think about the things my good friend said to me and that helped me move beyond this uncomfortable encounter as well.
I know that you are hurting my friend and I do wish I could help you feel better about things, a reassuring hug would be very helpful I know, unfortunately the time and distance of our great brown land can make that also highly difficult.
