Hey @P12 

You've brought up some really interesting considerations here. It can feel so invalidating when someone might suggest an option or strategy for us to try that truely doesnt feel like it fits. I suppose we are the experts of ourselves and our own lives so it is up to us to find what feels right and what is going to work for us. For example, I love that you are here connecting with us! Although it is an alternative to "normal" activities, its still a space we can facilitate connection and community and I do hope you continue to do so  

Also, I'm sorry that it has left you considering the purpose of life altogether - if you find you are sitting with those dark thoughts tonight, please feel free to reach out to Lifeline 13 11 14 for some further support.