Hi @Karo88 just wanted to say that I read your post, and welcome to the forum.
Sounds like you have a lot going on atm. I have found it very helpful to chat with people here because they just get it. I also struggle with anxiety and it has spiked recently. Just being able to express what I am going through here sometimes helps a little. Take care.
PS I thought about joining the forum for 2 years before I did it, and felt a bit at sea for a while. It has been worth it for me
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