Hmm there is no doubt then. In 2013 my best friend at the time passed away. It was tragic. We lived together and he died at home. Alcohol and medication killed him. Heart attack and he was gone. The former caused that heart attack.
I was meant to be living there healing, but I did not know the extent of his drinking and so on. I absolutely adored him. I was there for him a lot. It was really hard for me to go through as I was not in a good place myself.
After he passed away my life spiralled out of control for the next three years. I am ok now, buy it took me a long time to let him go and realise it wasn't my fault and there was nothing further I could have done for him. Something like that affects you forever though.
My point is, take the time you need to go out country. You need to recharge/heal/make you a priority.
It doesn't mean you do not love someone because you choose that, it means you do so you can be there even more and renewed should you decide to be.
Help in carrying the load us never something I have had, but thank you.
I hope this has helped.
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