@I wonder if you have looked at the website called...healthyplace.com...
I have been on it today and I found it VERY helpful indeed. The segment I read was on 'how to open up and reveal yourself to others' but there are links at the bottom of the page about relationships too.
I agree totally with everything @Maggie has said. I hope the torment you are feeling subsides soon. Please don't be too hard on yourself. It takes two to make a relationship work, are you trying too hard maybe?
takecare always-hope 💙
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