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18-10-2020 09:00 PM
18-10-2020 09:00 PM
the demon inside
every night when i go to bed, and sleep i have nightmares. and there horrible one, things i cant even put one here. i hate dreaming of them. its mainly the same one the same night.
then the next day it eat away at me. every minute of the day. i just dont get a brake from it. it effects my whole day. i dont manage to get anyhting done around the house or with the kids. then i hate myself for it. i dont achieve anything.
then day by day goes by then weeks. and here i am, still in the same spot just not moving. so deep in my world and with demon taking over my body. iv got no where to hide, no where to go. my head just spinning and spinning.
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18-10-2020 09:12 PM
18-10-2020 09:12 PM
Re: the demon inside
Hi there @magical_journey
It sounds like you are really doing it tough at the moment. I cannot imagine how distressing it must be to have no where to go or hide from a demon. Are you safe this evening? I know the members here are offering you support but please reach out for help off the forums if you need to talk to someone directly. There are a number of 24 hour help lines available;
Lifeline 13 11 14
Suicide Call Back 1300659 467
Samaritans 135 247
take care Magical
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18-10-2020 11:12 PM
18-10-2020 11:12 PM
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19-10-2020 03:18 AM
19-10-2020 03:18 AM
Re: the demon inside
@magical_journey Hi magical_journey and welcome to the forums. I too have demons who used to sit and the end of my bed and tell me to do awful things. There were three of them and for example one would make me move my body like a snake. It was sick stuff. This went on for months until I was on the right medication and left the house I was living in (the house I was living in was alive with spooks). I can honestly say now that I have not had any of those disturbances for years now. Am here if you need to talk. Just put a @ in front of my name and I will get a notification of your post. Take good care of yourself. Love greenpeax
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19-10-2020 09:44 AM
19-10-2020 09:44 AM
Re: the demon inside
thanks @greenpea
i have suffering with them since i was 12 years old. i hate it. i wish they wernt there. i sometimes feel them with everything i do and everywhere i go. i just dont know what to do anymore.
i use to be on the wrong meds and it was really bad. i beieved i had 3 of them as well. they all had names. len i was put on the right meds .
but anyway, i have just woken up, had a shower and taken my meds and i hope i have a better day today.
its nice to meet you @greenpea
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19-10-2020 01:27 PM
19-10-2020 01:27 PM
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19-10-2020 07:07 PM
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19-10-2020 07:14 PM
19-10-2020 07:14 PM
Re: the demon inside
iv had such a full on day today. the day just feels like its never going to end. my O2 is low so i have no energy whats so ever to do anything with the kids. my body is aching. when is this going to end.
i have running after the kids all afternoon. they needed some new shoes so we had to go to the shop which i hate.
one the good side, iv had the cleaner come today so my house is nice and clean for now.
i just wait for bed time now. thats all i want to do, is go to bed and hopefully not let the demons come.
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19-10-2020 08:33 PM
19-10-2020 08:33 PM
Re: the demon inside
I do hope you are coping. What can you do atm to relax your mind?
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22-10-2020 09:50 PM
22-10-2020 09:50 PM
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the last few day i have had s*** days. i just didnt want to be here. i have to go and see the doc tomorrow. i SH yesterday. i didnt really want to do it but y head wouldnt spot. im just so lost within myselff. i dont know what to do anymore. i hate the way i get or am. its just all to much to deal with. i have no friends or family no one to talk to. and that makes things even harder.