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Serenity1
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SH



I tried to SH to get rid of the feelings- I have not SH in such a long time- it has always helped to make me feel better-
In the past, it has always taken away the mental pain by focusing my Attention on the physical pain- therefore stopping the mental pain. It used to give me a huge high - because I was so relieved to be free of the non-stop mental pain- it made me feel high & relieved.
This time I don't even feel it- it is like my leg is not attached to my body or the essence of me-it has not helped relieve me of any mental pain - there is no high, no happiness to be free- no relief.
I barely even feel it. It has not helped at all. I have no ideas left. It hasn't got anything to do with suicide. I just feel numb. The only thing that ever helped me- that I was holding off on doing- has not helped at all.

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@Serenity1 

@Serenity1  Maybe it is a good thing that the SH did not distract enough from your other worries, as sometimes it can get dangerous and be hard to recover from physically.

I read your other post about Shame and guilt. It sounds as if you were carrying a huge load.  It took a long time before I could really face some of my behaviours and be kind enough to myself to forgive them.

I just kept returning to metta ... the buddhist loving kindness meditation ... it was the only that worked for me . .. tho something else might help you.

Take Care and Hugz

Smiley Happy

Serenity1
Senior Contributor

Re: SH

Thankyou @Applleblossom
Serenity1
Senior Contributor

Re: SH

@Appleblossom Thankyou I will look into metta- I think I would like it by the sounds of it.
I have not ever done anything too dangerous , as I am a wuss & luckily surface SH has given relief in the past. Not this time tho-
if I can recover from this difficult period-I know I can get through anything. I just don't know if I am strong enough to get through it tho -& if it breaks me, I feel it will break me completely. So I'm not very hopeful atm. But have moments of hope 💖

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@Serenity1 

Just walking with you.

Fear can be paralysing.

Simply taking next step is a good way to go.

Also napping and marking time when that is needed as well.

Smiley Happy

 

Serenity1
Senior Contributor

Re: SH

Thankyou @Appleblossom 😘

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The 24/7 nature of parenting needs more attention.

Give yourself lots of self care. @Serenity1 

I gave myself a hard time for long time.

Cant say I am good at that but I am doing my research and learning about it too, often from people on here.

Smiley Happy

 

 

Serenity1
Senior Contributor

Re: SH

I'm sorry I don't understand what you mean about the 24/7 nature of parenting @Appleblossom

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Just the being on call all the time adds a level of stress. Particularly if there is no other support or a sense of a village around the mother and child.

 

 

Serenity1
Senior Contributor

Re: SH

I'm sorry I don't understand what you mean about the 24/7 nature of parenting -needing more attention - i meant to say @Appleblossom
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