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@Snowie It is so much harder with a family around you to think about Hon 
One of the most difficult things about MI in my opinion is how hard we are on ourselves - it is often that we feel self-blame for being how we are but you take so many steps to help yourself also Snowie and you also recognise the effect it has on those around you - some do not have that insight yet nor the ability to take steps to help themselves so whilst you may feel you are stuck in one spot ...from what I have observed and shared with you over a long time is you are making progress - it may seem small to you but it is pretty massive from my point of view. Every day you continue to care for your family, go to your appointments, undergo ECT, 'battle' with your mother (and get through it), and more recently the love you have shown for you S with allowing his cousin to stay is truly amazing. You put everyone else at the forfront of your mind and that shows me your immense strength, care and nurturing of those around you - so you not only have a lot to be very proud of but should give yourself a pat on the back for each and every day you get through. 
@Shaz51 So glad you are better than yesterday my sister - I hope today is a nice quiet day for you with plenty of rest and relaxation. Cars are not my thing but also nice to kick back with something meaningless to help settle the body and mind
