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01-07-2020 01:59 PM
01-07-2020 01:59 PM
Just can’t dig myself out of the hole I am in
I just need to vent and get this all out... I am not looking for a magic fix... I just need to get it out
Why oh why is it so hard to bounce back
as many know... just over a week ago I resigned from a job I had had most of my life.... I couldn't handle the bullying, the victimization and the way I was being treated,so on advice from a union representative I sent in my resignation... two days later I received a letter to say despite me resigning they were terminating me anyway... they also reported me to the registration board and placed a black mark against my name should I try and get another role like the one I had...this has torn me apart psychologically.... all I seem to do is cry... have almost constant panic attacks... I try to go for a walk to ground myself but have to turn round and come home as I am crying.... every time the phone rings I panic.... an email alert comes in I panic... a message... panic....
I have been offered a temporary contract job bu one of the good people I worked with...but just filling out the paperwork is too overwhelming....
all I want to do is curl up under the covers and hide from the world....
my GP upped my antidepressants... that doesn't seem to be helping.... I have a phsycholgist telehealth session tomorrow... I hope that will help a bit... but I don't hold high hopes
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01-07-2020 03:24 PM
01-07-2020 03:24 PM
Re: Just can’t dig myself out of the hole I am in
@Lostandalone wrote:two days later I received a letter to say despite me resigning they were terminating me anyway... they also reported me to the registration board and placed a black mark against my name should I try and get another role like the one I had...
@Lostandalone - am really sorry that this has happened to you.
I am also sorry to hear about the constant panic attacks. That's good that your GP has upped your anti-depressants...I hope they kick in soon.
Sitting with you in your pain, @Lostandalone ...
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02-07-2020 06:45 AM
02-07-2020 06:45 AM
Re: Just can’t dig myself out of the hole I am in
@Lostandalone I’m so sorry all this is happening to you. It sounds very unfair and cruel..
I hope your Telehealth psychologist appointment is helpful today. Sending kind thoughts your way. 💜💜
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02-07-2020 07:39 PM
02-07-2020 07:39 PM
Re: Just can’t dig myself out of the hole I am in
Hi @Lostandalone,
Just wanted to check in and see how you're doing today. I hope your appointment helped, and that today was a bit better for you. Let us know how you're travelling
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02-07-2020 08:06 PM
02-07-2020 08:06 PM
Re: Just can’t dig myself out of the hole I am in
Thanks for checking up on me @Jynx
my telehealth appointment helped a bit.... and then I spent the day being dragged around the shops by a good friend... that helped heaps as it took my mind off things.... then I came home and did a jigsaw to keep me occupied... will see what tomorrow brings
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02-07-2020 08:29 PM
02-07-2020 08:29 PM
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@Lostandalone Really glad to hear it
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02-07-2020 08:38 PM
02-07-2020 08:38 PM
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09-07-2020 11:18 PM
09-07-2020 11:18 PM
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Hi @Lostandalone I am so sorry you are going through this. Thinking of you 💜
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13-07-2020 11:15 AM
13-07-2020 11:15 AM
Re: Just can’t dig myself out of the hole I am in
Hi all
today is not a good day.... I am still trying to dig... but I think I am digging down rather than up...:
surely I should have run out of tears to cry by now... but alas they keep flowing
I am just such a mess...
I can't think straight...
I can't sleep properly
i don't want to eat... but I have to
i try to do things to distract myself from my dark thoughts... but I can't
I feel like my life is a jigsaw puzzle but pieces are missing... or the wrong pieces are in the box and it will just never fit together .... I stare blankly at it... but nothing fits together
i just want to be me again... to smile... to laugh... to enjoy life....
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13-07-2020 11:31 AM
13-07-2020 11:31 AM
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@Lostandalone wrote:surely I should have run out of tears to cry by now... but alas they keep flowing
I am just such a mess...
I can't think straight...
I can't sleep properly
i don't want to eat... but I have to
i try to do things to distract myself from my dark thoughts... but I can't
Sorry to hear all this. @Lostandalone ... 😞
Sending you a warm gentle hug (if that's OK? Please ignore if not), and wishes for some improvement in your situation and mental health soon...