Lived Experience Forum

[CheerBear]

Really great idea @Teej ❤

[Teej]

Thanks @CheerBear 💜😘

[Teej]

Confused 

scared

insecure

LOST

alone but not wanting company

Oversensitive

intense

self loathing

Urges to sh

Using a safe but unhelpful coping strategy

not sure why I’m writing this. Please don’t respond. Hoping tomorrow will be better. 

[Whitehawk]

Hi @Teej

Whitehawk here, the moderator. Sorry you are struggling and I really hope you find a helpful strategy tonight that keep you safe until the morning. Take care.

[Faith-and-Hope]

💜💜💜💐💕 @Teej .....

[Maggie]

@Teej 

[Teej]

I am struggling at the moment. I am very much riding huge waves of emotion fueled by hormones, physical fatigue and stress. I understand that all my vulnerabilities are high but I don’t know what self care to do or how to deal with this combination of things. 

Im really scared about being on the edge. I’ve had some vicious self loathing spirals today with dark thoughts and then somehow pulled myself together but it’s coming back over and over. 

I am scared I can’t hold it all together over the next few days. 

[Teej]

I know I don’t deserve it but I need help ☹️😥 to keep my record going. 

[Maggie]

@Teej  I’m hearing you. You deserve help. 💕💕💕

[Teej]

Thanks @Maggie . I don’t know what I need I’ve been torturing myself for over a week with things. I think it building but I don’t know what to do to stop it.