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[Shaz51]

good afternoon my amazing sister @greenpea 

I hope you had a an okish day today xxx

Hello and hugs @Adge , @Flying_Hams , @Ant7 , @outlander 

[greenpea]

@Shaz51  Hi my sister Shaz51 I have had a brave day today pushing myself forward and will do again tomorrow :). You have had another busy day today I saw on A long rave :Dxx

[Shaz51]

finished work at 2pm my sister @greenpea  and hsve been ralaxing since then xxx

how are you xx

[greenpea]

@Shaz51 I am pushing through my fears. It is like walking through treacle. At least it is not like keeping my head above quick sand. My biggest fears are here and I am going to deal with them come what may this year. Last year I ran from them this year I wont I will turn around and face them. It was day one today and I faced a fear and did damn well too :). Big one tomorrow ...... I know I will have panic attacks but it has to be done. Otherwise I will live my life in fear and in a running away state.

I am glad that you are relaxing now. Honestly two gardens and a house I think you said is alot for most people.

[Adge]

Hi @Shaz51 @greenpea Spontaneous invite.

I'm off to my back neighbour's, to have a drop of Whisky (at her suggestion)...

Adge

[Appleblossom]

Love the sound of you doing "damn well" facing a fear.

Yeah one at a time ... no hurry.

@greenpea 

@Shaz51Go Shazzy!

[greenpea]

@Adge  0o0o0o0o0oooo..... well have a nice time Adge. Spontaneous invites are generally the best. Cannot wait to here how it goes. xxx

[greenpea]

@Appleblossom  Thanks Appleblossom :Dxxx

Are you good at facing your fears?

[greenpea]

@Meowmy  Hey Meowmy :D. Where is our cat? I havent seen him around today. Is he on his thread do you know?

[Appleblossom]

Not sure @greenpea 

Someone once told me I stank of fear.  It was in a private primal therapy situation.  I am guessing it was my constant state while growing up but that I also faced a lot. I was the one who had to look after lil bro and sister a lot without an adult around and all that.  So in some ways I was also poor at gauging risk. I showed a gf how to catch pt in teens she had never been to town alone.   I left home at 16 and found that I could pay my bills. I was not sure about getting a credit card when I was 18 and the bank manager was fine with it for buying a motor bike. So faced a lot of fear on them. Then travelling overseas for a year when I was 20, but I was not really a thrill seeker ... a little bit maybe, but the bike was also just a form of transport and way of bonding with me mates etc .... No one had a car in my family. I was just being practical.  The my brother got one and maybe I was blamed idk. I was afraid of going mad a lot and mainly have stared it down, but if you have to do that a lot ... you get pretty mad ... its a no win situation.  I think I had to lose the fear of boringness and other things. I am not afraid of going mad any more ... been there done that.