14-08-2018 09:27 PM
The past year of my life has been the most traumatic and hardest year yet. I broke up with my fiancé of five years and three weeks after that I was raped, and my ex told me I deserved it. I have suffered from depression and anxiety for a few years, but this last year I have really been struggling. I can’t control my thoughts. I could be driving and I wonder what it would be like to crash into a tree. I am constantly googling the easiest and most pain free way to end it all, I have even considered going for a hand gun licence. I can not stop these thoughts and I feel like a crazy person. I hate going to psychologists, the idea of opening up to a complete stranger face to face worries and scares me. There are days where I just feel so so so emotional. Where I crave to break my 60+day self harm free streak. How does anyone deal with this. I don’t want to be a burden on anyone
14-08-2018 10:52 PM
Welcome to the forums, It sounds like you are going through a rough time at present, I know it can be scary seeking help at times, but you really deserve some support right now, and I hope you can find some useful strategies within the forums. I addition I encourage you to call Lifeline 131114 and have a chat with your GP, and share you struggles. I also just wanted to say, it sounds like you have gone for 60 days free of SH. That is a wonderful achievement...
14-08-2018 11:04 PM
15-08-2018 07:06 AM
I don’t where to start with strategies.
I have a very hard time trusting people, so online counselling could work.
thank you for your support
16-08-2018 08:21 PM
How can you say that @LSeven? How can you say it’s bs.
I can’t believe someone would write this in here
16-08-2018 08:26 PM
Hope you’re ok @Lesley1. Snd im sorry for what you’ve gone through. Have you tried Sane’s helpline. I’ve used them a few times (today I used them as I struggled) snd they are very supportive without being judgemental.
Take care. Happy to chat again. Xx
16-08-2018 08:29 PM
I didn’t know SANE had a helpline 🤔
thank you so much @BlueBay
I don’t know why but this week I have struggled like I never have before.
16-08-2018 08:34 PM
On the top left hand corner there are four lines. Press it and a list of items will come up. You’ll see the words “get help” press that. Then press “launch chat” and fill out all the required questions and begin chat.
It is very good helpline @Lesley1
16-08-2018 09:01 PM
Seems like there were some very strong opinions expressed tonight...
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