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[BlueBay]

since coming home after 5 weeks in psych unit i am forever excessive eating, looking for whatever i can get my hands on

i need help

[cloudcore]

Hi @BlueBay ,

These last 5 weeks sound like they have been really difficult 💛What kind of support do you feel would be most helpful for you right now?

cloudcore⛅

[BlueBay]

So hubby tells me just now that he’s lost a certain amount of weight. 

im so angry.  

I have decided that after tonight’s dinner I’m not going to eat. That’s the only way I can lose 

he has no idea just how hard it is for me with an eating disorder 

he can eat less and bang he is less weight 

I am upset because he says things that he has no idea how it hurts me 

he said other things about food  I can’t say on here. 

[BlueBay]

just had my last dinner for a while

decided that i will not eat for a while to see how i go 

i am sick of media, social media, photos, commercials, magazines, fb, 

can anyone relate 

possibly not, i am the one who is crazy

i am sorry i need to vent i need to scream it out

i am not going to eat

[BlueBay]

i am seeing my dr tomorrow morning and i am going to tell him about my eating or no much eating

i need help

but i also need to lose weight

it's a vicious cycle for me

@Bow @tyme 

[Bow]

Sorry things are so tricky for you at the moment @BlueBay 

I’m unfortunately not much help at the moment cause I’m not in a good place myself. But I’m glad your going to see your go tomorrow and plan to talk to them about your eating. I hope your dr can help you.

[BlueBay]

I’m sorry @Bow you’re not good at the moment. 
im scared to tell my dr but I’m getting angry with myself and hate myself even more. 
sending you hugs lovely 

xxxooo

[Bow]

Just be honest with your dr @BlueBay it’s the only way that they will be able to help you properly. I know that it’s hard but it’s for the best. 💕

[BlueBay]

Hey @Bow 

I couldn’t do it. 
 Didn’t tell my dr about my eating issue 

i know I should have but I’m just too scared I’ll be judged or thought of as being “silly”

I’m triggered atm with a flashback of something that happened to me years ago. I’ve emailed my psych. 

hope you’re ok. I know you’re struggling atm. 
take care xxx

[BlueBay]

i am at a desperate point with my eating/dieting etc etc etc

i can't get it in my head to go slow with a new way of going about this - my mind is racing with 

who cares anyway

i need and have to lose my weight amount now, not next month or next year

i am feeling very destructive and very overwhelmed

it's so hard to do this in a good way

i have to write out a food diary and a exercise diary daily

i will most likely wreck it

it's a vicious cycle

that i can't handle

@Bow @tyme @Shaz51 @Emelia8 @hanami and others reading