Hi everyone.
I can hear again now (finally) – nurse flushed wax out of both ears.
That was such a relief.
Being deaf in one ear (then the other ear as well), was knocking my confidence down – felt like being in the Twilight Zone (weird Sci-Fi).
My Blood Pressure has finally come down – due to my Prostate medication (Dr thinks).
Prostate meds reduces blood pressure - as a positive (known) side-effect.
So I don’t need to take extra Blood Pressure medication.
I got my Referral to see Surgeon – to have internal stitches (out through skin) looked at.
I don’t know what will happen then – there is still a ban on any “elective surgery”, so they cannot operate on it.
My distress levels are very high, not coming down much yet (since past few weeks).
Having to focus on one small task at a time, one hour at a time.
Not succeeding in getting myself out anywhere (for outings or enjoyment) – so far still just the shops, 3km away.
Dissociation (daze) quite bad – that's a trauma survivor's symptom.
Grounding or any focus is not working well (or at all).
I cannot believe that almost 3 weeks has passed (already), since I lost my job (termination).
Nothing seems to have changed, yet where has the 3 weeks gone?
Practically, yes I have done (achieved) quite a list of things - yet emotionally I still feel in shock.
Cannot see past losing my job (was not supposed to happen) - to plan any next step or goal.
Oh, I needed to do trips away - I have not had a holiday, or any trip away in 3 years (at least).
I haven't done that yet either (that's supposed to come first)....
More necessary that getting a new job.
Adge
